When I was 31 my infertility journey began.
It was a tough one. I was married for one and a half years when we began to try to conceive. I remember how many pregnancy tests came back negative -about 14. That was pretty disappointing considering my cycles were sometimes 40 days long.
I was diagnosed with failure to ovulate.
I had younger neighbor friends who were thinking of conceiving. They tried one time and conceived right away. As wonderful as it was for them I couldn’t help but feel completely awful! I thought of all of these women on the streets, struggling with drugs who could conceive. I thought of how healthy I was and why was this happening to me?
I was someone who ate right, exercised regularly, wasn’t over weight, didn’t have any unhealthy habits. I had found the perfect guy, got married, and expected that things would go as planned. But they didn’t.
Everyone around me seemed to have no trouble with conception. But there I was, then a new member of the infertility clinic. I would cry at my appointments. Those poor doctors must feel so helpless sometimes. Mine did, I am sure. The new baby photos they posted on the board often helped me have hope.
What happened to newlywed life? Suddenly sex seemed like a chore. It even takes the fun out of time with your spouse that is supposed to be enjoyable. Even my husband tired of the chore it became!
Where do you find hope? Where do you find happiness? There is no easy answer. A person wanting to become a parent is a person with so much love to give, and so much happiness to share. Wanting to be someone you can’t is a terrible thing to realize. But it doesn’t have to be. Knowing someone like this or being friends with someone like this is a wonderful thing. It may be hard sometimes, but it can be very rewarding. They are very special people with very special hearts! Love them and encourage them. Cry with them. Laugh with them.
My story ended well. I hope yours does too! I truly do. I know how hurtful and disappointing infertility can be.
It’s National Infertility Awareness Week.
RESOLVE’s goal is to increase the conversation about infertility and to inform the public that:
Infertility is a disease that affects 1 in 8 couples of reproductive age
There are many ways to build a family
Help reduce the stigma by bringing attention to the details/issues/costs surrounding all ways people diagnosed with infertility can build a family.
Understand when to seek the help of a specialist
This book really helped me when I first got started. I bought this when I realized it wasn’t going to be easy getting pregnant! Maybe you will find it helpful as well.
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